simplesole:

Really has a way to make me feel like shit about myself.

The nice comments help sort of.

but not really.

idk, w.e

Really terrible mood.

Need to cry it out.

Who’s this girl I’ve become?

Cynicism is cyclical; it keeps going around until it reaches someone that isn’t influenced by it.

Why do you keep accepting negative feedback from people that are unhappy enough with themselves to actually anonymously degrade someone who is already having a hard time?

See, there are three types of relationships that you can have with people (or anything): Mutualistic, commensal, and parasitic.

Some people are unfortunately parasites and you should treat them as such.

So keep your chin up and buy yourself a good bug spray.

kiimberly:

I’m so fucking stresssed outtttt. Omg.

Me and my cousin just had a very interesting conversation. We never really talk like this so it was good to have someone elses opinions. But we came to the conclusion, we will never trust the opposite sex, and we will be single forever.

And honestly, I don’t even give a fuck.

I’m preparing a nice sign that I’ll hang to every house I’ll ever live in that reads “No Girls Allowed…. You Whores.”

:)

No, but seriously, it’ll be fine. Just give it time.

kiimberly:

My cousin needs new york accounts soo help him outt (: please

kiimberly:

So he’s an artist; he’s in a contest. He drew a pinup girl. This is the picture

Alright so. If you would do him a big favor and vote for him, it’d be greatly appreciated (:

These are the steps:

1.You have to go on a website schoolism.com
2. Register (yes its a pain and stuff i know but support!)
3. verify your email
4. after youve registered click on control panel
5. then click the tab that says “TV”
6. then click the link that says”Vote & Upload” (dont upload just vote!)
7.look for the picture i just posted ^^^^^
8. VOTEEEE :D

So it’s kinda a long process, but  please do itt (:

Tomorrow at noon. Voting is disabled at the moment. I’m gonna repost this tomorrow too.

I’m going to hug you for this.

And draw you a picture… if you tell me what you want.

Happy Halloween!

kiimberly:

Seriously. Tomorrow I have a major American Government test. Well not major, but it’s still a test. It’s only worth 20 points but I have a low B right now in that class, and the quarter ends tomorrow, so I need to do good.I tried to study, and I can’t remember anything I read.

Then theres English. My teacher started crying today because people didn’t do their essay that was assigned over two weeks ago. I felt bad, but I did mine, so I didn’t get in trouble.

And then theres math. Not just math; Integrated Math 3. That’s supposed to be an easy class, or so I was told. But no, it’s definitely whooping my ass. I have a C. Not a bad C, but a C. That’s not acceptable to me or my parents. I just cant grasp anything we learn in that class. The teacher just reads the textbook and when you have a question, its like talking to a wall. Ugh “/

I really do hate school. Everyone says that, but everyday I wake up at 6:05 AM and I click snooze and lay there in bed thinking of an excuse I could use to not to go school. But then I think about it, and if I don’t go, I’ll just be missing more work and I’ll have to make it up either way, so I get up and get ready.

I honestly don’t know what I’m going to do next year. One of my teachers was a college professor, and he told us how they don’t care about you and that what we do now is nothing compared to next year. He doesn’t teach that way of course. He just gives test, and that’s all that counts for us. Because he said that’s what they do in college >.< Great, because I’m oh so great at taking tests. -_-

Blahhhhh. Sorry for anyone who read this. Which I doubt anyone did.

College is pretty much the most relaxing stressful thing possible.

You’re basically on your own unless you get a great professor.

The classes aren’t too bad though.

simplesole:

So this song, made me start thinking about a lot. About past relationships and shit. So… yeah. Here goes:

Breakups- Breakups were really never too hard on me. I guess I never took any of my relationships seriously. And the first time I actually do, it blows up in my face. It’s my fault so it’s fine, I don’t have any animosity towards you. In my past relationships, I had said that they broke my heart, but I think it was just me- not really knowing what a broken heart felt like. In my past “serious” or long relationships, I was cheated on, in every single one of them. I used to say that they all took a turn in breaking a piece of my heart, and I loved M.F with what I had left of it, but the truth is I’ve never felt a break-up like this. This is far worse than being lied to in the past and being cheated on in the past. Of course, those things are terrible, but at the time I was more mad than I was sad. So I didn’t spend my nights crying, I spent them angry. This is a different type of pain. The pain I felt in the past was just full of anger. Those boys changed me, to be what I was with you. I said I loved you with what I had left of my heart, but in reality, I loved you with my whole heart. No, not my whole heart, because my grandfather took a part with him, but those other boys, who cheated and lied, they didn’t. I never loved them enough for them to take a part of my heart with them when we went out separate ways. But you, you’re different. I would give anything to have you back, but you said not to force anything. So I wont. I’m going to let life happen, how its supposed to. Maybe I didn’t show it enough, but I loved you more than I loved myself. Especially now, I despise myself more than anything. In english one of the questions we had to answer was one thing we feel guilty about. My answer was “I feel guilty about maybe not keeping my eyes open and being aware of his problems. If I focused more on him and trying to keep him happy, maybe we’d still be together”. & Chuggins wrote a little comment on it. It says “Dont blame yourself for for others actions”. I don’t talk to anyone about this because I know that they’re just all going to tell me the same thing, “Dont blame yourself” “You’re young, you have you’re whole life to live and meet other guys” But I’m not thinking about my life in the future, I’m thinking about the life I’m living now, and I will forever blame myself. I don’t want to start over with someone else. I was perfectly happy with who I had. Even through the bad times. And if he’s going to move on, then so be it. Like I said before I’m not going to force anything, but I don’t have to. He can continue to live his life with real smiles and laughter, and I’ll continue to fake them in public.

Sad, I know. But thats the reality of my reality.

I have a friend in the same conundrum as you are. We’ve been trying to figure out how to solve his problem when in reality we should have been trying to figure out what the problem really was.

The truth, no matter how sad, is that we’ve fucked up (for lack of a more fitting word) and that has caused this person to leave us. From then on, we are depending on the other person to see if the relationship will jump-start again because we have no control over it.

It’s difficult to enter a relationship, take it seriously, and think no one will get hurt if it ends. 

Now the problem is how to cope with it.. 

“When we’re incomplete, we’re always searching for somebody to complete us. When, after a few years or a few months of a relationship, we find that we’re still unfulfilled, we blame our partners and take up with somebody more promising. This can go on and on—series polygamy—until we admit that while a partner can add sweet dimensions to our lives, we, each of us, are responsible for our own fulfillment. Nobody else can provide it for us, and to believe otherwise is to delude ourselves dangerously and to program for eventual failure every relationship we enter.” (Tom Robbins) 

kiimberly:

Amy: She’s such a whore though. She has huge hips and huge thighs.

She’s gonna grow up to be just like me xD Maybe even worse. <3

NOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!

…just kidding.

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